So its been about two months since I moved in with my parents. I know join the millions who have already done so. I thank them and love them for their generosity but at the same time they are driving me fucking insane. And they know this....so if u either of u read this don't be mad.
The girls are fine they have their room which I am still in since we do not have our bed over here yet from the ever declining Midlothian. I read the other day the median house price from 2010 to 2011. Midl was 135,000 to now 99,000. No fucking duh, its a total dump now. U can find at least 10 house in a two block radius of mine for foreclosure. Good job banks, bc guess what no one is knocking on the door asking to buy these houses. But I digress.....
We only have two tv's in the house, which leads me to either watch old people crap or kid crap. Oh the joys. During the day since I'm not gainfully employed and told about that everyday I have to choose btw Soccer or Bubble Guppies. I chose the later. I try to go on that new invention called the Internet, but I find it boring and takes forever to find things that I want to learn about.
I have been reading some books on my phone, I have so far read: Bitter is the new Black.....by Jen Lancaster, True Compass by Ted Kennedy, Two Agatha Christie novels, and some other crap that I cant even remember now. I have yet to pick up my copy of The Help my husband pinched and saved to buy me for my birthday, since I watched the movie I am finding it hard to read. Maybe in two years I can read it.
I look for self help books to get me out of this funk I like to call bullshit cosmic joke. But yeah its a nice place to live. Laugh off all my problems, hope for the best, apply for ten thousand jobs and get NO call backs. I have been getting together with gurlfriends once a month, but that only seems to get me in a deeper funk, bc I do not want to purden them with my crap since guess what we all have crap. I don't want to get in a pissing contest to see who;s life is shittier.
Amelia has since stopped going to school which is so much fun. She says she hates school and they make fun of her, etc. We have taken her to see a child psych bc at this point she has been like this since August, and its exhausting. She thinks its separation anxiety, I think its that and social anxiety and Oppositional Defiant Disorder. But hey all I am is a stupid ass who cannot find a job so what do I know. We are going back in a week, to let her know the chore chart, the not fighting with her, not pressuring her to go to school, reading the books about not being scared is not working. Bc guess what we have been doing this since Aug.
I have also applied for ten thousand other jobs for Bonezilla in his field and not his field, with no such luck. We are willing to move the fuck out of Illinois to be valid human beings in the world. I just applied for a job for him in Milwaukee, its what he did, can we please get a call back, we will figure it out. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. Karma please come our way, bc we have helped others get jobs and it has never been returned for either of us.
I guess this is a pretty long blog. So lets stop here and see what awaits me in the next.
