17 days left till Disney

Holy Crap! I have nothing ready. I have the clothes for the girls together but not washed, I have to find something in this messy house for me to wear, and oh and my husband too. I have to make a flexible plan for the trip. I also have to get a lot of Xanax, dealing with my father will b hard enough.

He has just about lost it. His mind is not there anymore, I hate fucking Cancer. My mothers aunt just passed away from CA and now a childhood friend of my sister's mom just passed from CA. WTF its everywhere.

I really want to start making some connections with my friends. I have lost connection to a lot of them over the years. It seems that as life goes on you loose the things that help make u who u are today. I have great friends, some over 20yrs, and I have been a shitty friend.

Sunburn and randoms

After my first two days at work I decided that it would b time for the family to have some fun. So we headed to the Indiana Dunes. We had a blast, but thankfully i called my Mom about 2 and she said a huge storm is coming in, so around 330 we packed up and left. And it was just in the nick of time. That storm was rough, could not see when u were driving. We also had to stop by a friends house and help get their generator out bc when it storms they lose power and flood. Its amazing because we only live like 8 block apart and we never flood.

I have a bad sunburn but it seems to be getting better. Fathers day was good, had fun with the family at my parents house. I took Mimi to see her first movie today Toy Story 3. We had fun, laughing, crying it was great.

I feel like I am completing more in my life now that I am seeing a different light. I just have some more battles to conquer. But I know I will.

New day new job

I start my first day tomorrow at my new job. Its a part time customer service job 5 min from home. I am really excited. I hope i get everything. I have started to notice that my memory has not been so good lately.

Maybe its my mind telling me to slow down. I go to sleep and think of about a million things. And crap that does not even matter anymore. Sometimes memories from grammer school or h.s. as if i can change anything now.

I am also hoping the everything starts to fall into place. Jeff and his schooling, Amelia and her potty training, etc.

And i do have Disney to look forword to. It will have a sad moment though, my grandmothers sister Claribel, just passed away. It is also my god mothers mother. So its a sad time for the family in Florida. We have never been close but when Cancer take a person it makes it harder. And it seems that everyone I know just about has Cancer. and man does that fucking sux.