Learning to let go.

My lesson for myself right now is to try to let go of things. Sometimes people or things hurt you, and by holding that grudge or what not it hurts you more. That being sad some people or things are harder to forgive. 
How does one forgive a douche-bag who punches you in the face, or the family that disregards that action? Or how do you forgive siblings when they do and take things from you that can never repair the relationship that is already rocky? 
With friends that were good friends but did something cross and you never bothered to speak to them about it? 
Children that misbehave and you forget that they are only children?
When in anger your husband say awe full things, that cannot be forgotten?

I am not sure when and if I ever get there, maybe for some but not all. I am not perfect, I am sure I have hurt others. Wait I know I have. And I hope those I have hurt can or have forgiven me. 

I am at this stage in my life I want lasting friendships and relationships with family members. I do not want all the drama that goes with it. I don't want to feel like I am the only one putting forth effort and get nothing in return. My high school days are over. I am not here to win the popularity contest(not that I would have won it h.s.). Friends should call each other, offer support, be willing to move heaven and earth for each other if they love having that person in their life. 

I have one lifetime friend leaving my life right now because she is moving away. It was hard to find the time between our very different schedules to see each other here. Now add distance to the equation, I can only hope and will do my damnedest to keep this friendship going. 

While she leaves, I have a new friend entering my life. And I feel so blessed to have her, because I know that we will be life friends. And its a shame we did not know each other in h.s. even though we went to h.s. together.  But sometimes things happen for reasons. 

As the quote above says"...destroy your heart" I do not need any of that poison in my life. I need cures of the heart.